The Useless Words of The Unknown

I wish you’d say just how you feel. So I could have the chance to spill my goddamn guts… So I could tell you how I feel. So I could tell you just how much I miss you. So you know how many times our memories cross my mind in a day. Like a fucking video of all the precious moments I still hold dear and close. They’re all I stand on when I wake up to get through my day.. And all I find myself searching for when I close my eyes. I have my life and all of the wonderful people who I’ve had the chance to meet.. But for once I had someone who meant more then the world to me. For a moment I forgot about life.. All the things weighing me down. All the plans I had for myself. Everything stopped. And I found myself with you. I didn’t care about anything, but you. That moment has lasted since before December 26 or even June 22, 2011… I just made a mistake. A mistake I might hold on to for the rest of my life. I should’ve told you. I shouldn’t have been scared…

I wish you knew.. I wish you could hear me scream when I go back to every time I said I loved you and wonder where the hell I went wrong… Wonder how and what brought it all down. I can’t get passed you. I don’t want to. 

I wish you knew.. That I never had a chance surviving without you… I already knew I couldn’t. I should’ve learned my lesson the first time. I know I’m broken, I know I need work… But God knows I need you. I just wish I could be something you would want.

I wish.. Our wish could come true.